Not boldly going into a new phase of my life

I am sitting in a hotel room in Appleton, Wisconsin. I just dropped my son, Tanner, and his girlfriend, Erin, off at her dorm on the campus of Lawrence University. I drove 7 hours to see his concert this afternoon. an excuse, really. To see my child. It’s hard. Parenting. Moving from one phase of my life to another. It’s painful yet exhilarating. I want to do this right but I have no models. So, I proceed into a new chapter of my life – not boldly. I’m forging my own path. Be there for him but not too much. Don’t want to come off desperate. Don’t want to come off needy. Don’t want to come off out of touch. Don’t want to come off too critical. Just love him for who he is right now. At this moment. Be bold enough to love him for that.

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2 thoughts on “Not boldly going into a new phase of my life

  1. Wow. Your piece left me a bit breathless. I am not a parent. But, I have parents…well one parent. Your writing just proves that we are all connected and can see through one another’s eyes no matter if we have the same experiences in life, or not. I could feel you. Loved the repeating lines beginning with “Don’t want…”. Very, very powerful. Love your writing style! YOU shine through each and every word.

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